I wrote recently about the slow realization that I was slipping back into some scary eating patterns. I’m here to report that I had good reason to be nervous; I’ve gained 3 pounds. I don’t know if other people are like this, but weight gain/loss shows up slowly on my scale. Long before I see the change on the scale I can feel it in my body. I knew something had changed yet I chose to ignore it; until this morning when it showed its ugly face on my scale. I think that snacking is to blame.
I was “proud” of myself because, even though I was snacking more, I was eating foods that were friendlier to my diabetes. The Kate snacker of today barely resembles the Kate snacker of yore, other than the fact that she’s still snacking. I no longer munch mindlessly on chips or crackers or snack-size Snickers (did I really used to do that?), but instead I’ve been mostly snacking on mixed nuts and cheese…and the occasional piece of chocolate (not Snickers, but healthier 70% cacao stuff). The bottom line is that snacking is still snacking, regardless of what you’re eating, and too much of a good thing isn’t necessarily good for you.
I don’t feel good about this, in any sense. I feel a bit more bloated, my tummy sticks out more and I’m pissed at myself for gaining these 3 pounds. My glucose has been ok but the additional 3 pounds, though not a lot of weight, could possibly cause my body to be a wee bit more insulin resistant. It’s a vicious cycle, one that I intend to break starting today.
It’s important to remember that eating to lose weight and eating to control blood glucose aren’t always the same thing. I may have been eating foods that were friendly to my glucose but too much of those foods weren’t friendly to my waistline. Starting today I will not snack unless it’s too long between meals or I’m feeling low (not sad). I’ve also been eating more at dinner, which I hadn’t been doing. No more seconds for Kate! These seemingly small things have added up to a big change. I’m not just talking about the weight gain, but the shift in my thinking. It’s time to shift back and regain (re-lose?) my control (weight).